Chemo-Winter Activities

Well, chemo last week almost killed me since they administered the bleo-the most toxic to the lungs- when I already had only 75% of my lungs working. I hallucinated, vomited, passed out- not in that order- and it was not fun nor pretty. My poor hubby...

Now, I have a pleural rub- which means my lungs are so inflammed that they rumble when I breathe and are KILLING ME to take a breath.

With the temperature being what it is in New York- about a 10 degree average- I'm under house arrest. This is what I've been doing---

• organizing the kitchen
• re-organizing the closets
• getting rid of clutter and things we don't use
• creating storage under the beds
• playing with recipes for the crock pot
• catching up on my correspondence (i loved being a pen pal when I was little, an addiction that has never truly gone away...)
• cleaning out the clothing drawers...
• gathering ideas for menus
• gathering ideas for travel and other activities I get to do when chemo is over (my new rule, that i'm VERY excited about- is at least ONE NEW THING EVERYDAY to do, be, or have, or make...)
• making appointments for my book discussions and thinking up/working on more book ideas
• watching my hair grow in like a chia pet...

At this rate- chemo will be completely over April 22nd, unless my 3rd pet scan (sometime in March) comes up COMPLETELY clear- which is what i am praying and hoping for...

the good news--- my 2nd pet scan showed that 70% of the disease/masses/whatever my body had is gone!!

GONE GONE GONEEEE

I'm still freaked out that this happened to me and that it happens to people. There should be a non-evasive cure for all cancers. I know it's out there.

In the meantime, I'm also excited about my hair growing in- and about the pixie cut I shall have! I was never ballsy enough to do it myself, but now...well, it's on it's way.

So keep toasty, send me light and love, and have fun out there for me...

love love love to y'all...

an open mind

[christina rozeas photography 2011]

((note:: obviously, this post never posted when i told it to!! thank you for reading and understanding!!*))

how many times do you just know your mind is completely open? you know that you are the one who observes more without judging, who is consantly hearing that little voice in his/her head?

how many times do you come face to face with people who are totally close minded for some (whatever it is) reason- and you still want to kick them in the treats even though you know you are judging?

that's me.

i am completely aware that some situations are less than sunny, and that it takes a certain type of person to be a certain kind of way- but yikes, some people.

so this year i think my resolution should be to push these people completely out of my mind. i mean, let's face it- they have enough drama going on that they've only created themselves- what do they need my kick in the treats for?

it wouldn't help 'em- i can tell you that.
as for me- i cannot wait for 2012. we've already celebrated so many fun events in the past few days (only 9? cheeeee)

what do you do to keep positive? please let me know
bring it on, baby.

my resolutions-2011

i wish i had the brain power (and not the cabin-fever-ridden brain i have now) to make a really awesome, noteworthy resolution list...

but i don't think i do :)

here are the resolutions i have been working on for quite some times, that haven't worked so well in the past...that's why i stopped making them in 2001.

10 years later, I'm back...so here we go :)

Globetrotting Gamine- The Resolutions

• tighten abs
• complete all stories/books/children's books and take it from there
• travel more
• take more pictures
• start the crafts i wanted to do and sell them on etsy
• go back to the places my besties and i discovered this past summer
• catch up on movies i've missed in 2010
• try to find an economical tennis lesson venue! yay!
• continue my travel scrapbooks...
• bake vegan*, cook and bake more!

ok, that's it for now. it's just the beginning.